The Girl He Liked ( PART 3 )” She Leaves My Reality “

 

        Read Part 1 and Part 2 before this to get a better hold

         A Fictional Medical LOVE STORY

This is a 3-part fictional medical love story between a boy and a girl which begins too soon and ends well (Narration; By the Boy)

CONTINUED PART 3;

                                     WHEN EMOTIONS ARE HIGH

Everything has its own story and so does the things that you do when your emotions are high. The advantage is you only act when they are high enough and exploding your brain with imagination and overthinking of what might go wrong or right. The disadvantage is you might act stupid enough to mess everything up of what you built years ago.

I came back from college at 6 in the evening. It hurts because, every time I decide to forget her knowing I don't deserve her, she comes right in front of me and rest everything vanishes. And guess what, I called her in the evening, slowly walking outside and memorizing every detail that I wanted to express. And ''BOOM, SHE CUT MY CALL'' ATLAST A SIGN OF RELIEF OR IS IT A DISASTER?

My story neither has a beginning, because I didn't tell her nor has an end, because she didn't tell me clearly. Hence this love story goes on with my daily routine. I am enjoying the process of falling in love with her and she doesn't even know, and that moment when you're alone thinking of her realizing what got you here to this moment is amazing.

It's that hope that keeps me going every day, thinking that everything is going to work out. It's that faith that whatever I did or didn't do is what got me here and I wouldn't change a thing about it.

                                                        Never Give Up on Love

Thats what my mind says right now

Knowing that she blocked me from everywhere and even ignored me when I called her to talk, I wanted to give up on her but, heart says'' wait it's not over yet, Write an email to her you idiot ''. I did write an email to her telling everything I felt and never got a reply (even checked my spam folder). Something badly warns me in my heart to never lose her at any cost, no matter the embarrassment, guilty, wronged, hurt, just keep trying until something dramatic happens.

My love life is stuck. What the hell should I do?. Deep down in my heart I know I'm going to end up with her. She just seems so difficult to get, why the hell does this happen?

I just wish she knew it in her heart that this guy loves her so much. I'm afraid of her anger! I don't know why she seems furious. Why is she making it so hard for me?

SHE'S THE PRETTIEST, PUREST SOUL, GENUINE HEART WITH NO AMBIGUITY.

I just wish her to be mine because no one on this earth will love her like I do or I hope she gets someone who'll love her like I do, see her everyday like I do, kiss her goodnight every day, watch over her when she's pregnant, hold her hand in her labor, eyes light up when he sees her, look after her from sickness to health, love her even on the worst days.

I don't think another soul is ready for this except me and that's why I keep telling, she's everything I am searching for, and I am everything she's searching for. You either say how you feel and mess things up or say nothing and let it mess you up. Sometimes you fall for someone you didn't expect  and that doesn't make it wrong, all you can do is ask them to stay and watch them walk away.

  

                                                         I TOLD HER

Hey '' (her name), all I ever wanted to say is that " I like You ". I know that you don't feel the same about me, but at least you deserve to know that someone likes you for who you are.

I know that we never spoke, but something tells me that you're good and kind and I hope I'm not wrong. Thats all I needed to say very long time ago, never had the courage or the chance to tell you.

I apologize for any misunderstanding that may have unfolded in the past and believe me I'm really sorry.

Somewhere down the line, I knew I would regret it if I didn't tell you now. I hope I'll hear from you; I'll be waiting.

                                                        SHE TOLD ME

'' Hello, I am sorry, I am not comfortable or do not like such things, please don't contact me or my friends related to this matter. ''

                                                       I TOLD MYSELF

I know that she doesn't like me, but at least deep down in her heart she knows I like her every time when she sees me every day. And over the span of these years, who knows she might even feel the same.

If I had the chance to see her every day, I would. The feeling of being with her is unexplainable. It's crazy how a person can be your home. 

When someone said '' if she's amazing, she won't be easy, if she's easy, she won't be amazing, if she's worth it, you won't give up, if you give up, you're not worthy. Truth is, everybody is going to hurt you, you just got to find the ones worth suffering for.

The worst pain is being in no contact with the person you're still in love with, who at one point would make your heart melt. And now, you can only love them in silence from a distance, slowly  being forced to close a chapter you never wanted to end.............................

Signing off @      Abhishek Ghooli

                         3RD MBBS   BMCRI